I’ve had a good weekend and an okay-ish start to my week. On Saturday I went around Chernivtsi some more. I saw some very nice scenery when I went to Zhovtnevy park. It’s a bit cold around here, but I’m very happy that Spring has come in full force nonetheless. I still really hope that victory will come to us sometime during this season. I thought it would be very nice with the symbolism of it all - starting afresh and flourishing. That’s how I hope the rest of Ukraine will look like when we win.
On Sunday my mother and I went shopping for food. We saw a basket where some volunteers gathered food and other essentials for our army, so we decided to get some nice things for them like instant coffee, noodles, waffles… It’s not much, but it’s honest work. It’s the least we can do right now for the people who risk our lives to protect us.
I’m having a rough time adapting to university classes again. I feel like our professors don’t understand the way the war is affecting us and the way we study and process information. Stress is really getting in my way of thinking clearly and doing my assignments efficiently. Or maybe I’m not fit to study again yet because I’m still very much depressed and grieving for my pets who just died. Plus, a few of my fellow students are currently in dangerous areas like Kherson. They’re still required to hand in all assignments on time… even if their lives are in danger. So I’m definitely not a fan of this system. But nonetheless, I managed to get at least a little of my work done, which already is a big step for me.
I’m trying to focus on the good things that surround me. But it’s hard to do, because the feeling of dread is always there. Especially whenever there are air raid sirens (today we had them at 4 in the morning…). Looking at photographs and having to do news research for uni is hard when all I can think of is the consequences that we have to deal with when the war is over. And images of the attack on Kramatorsk are too shocking to leave my mind. It’s beyond me that russia is trying to cover up this attack when THEY purposefully aimed at civilians just trying to leave the war zone. These monsters planned everything ahead. They even got the news articles ready, blaming Ukraine for attacking it’s own citizens. Cruel. But for us it’s just another week, and another batch of russian war crimes.