I was looking at pictures and videos of what’s left of Bucha, Irpin and Hostomel. I get chills every time I see the dead bodies that are scattered around Kyiv’s suburbs. Bucha is around 15 kilometres from where I live. The reason why we left is because of the stories of what the russians were doing to these peaceful little towns. And now I see the consequences of their actions, and I can’t help but feel my blood boil.
Last year my class went to Bucha after our graduation ceremony. Here is a photo of me and my former classmates (their faces covered) in the local municipal park from around July. I can’t imagine what’s left of it, but judging by the pictures of destroyed houses and dead bodies, probably not much.I’m so tired of this happening. I’m so fucking angry. I’m glad these monsters left Kyiv, but I still feel uneasy knowing that these monsters kept stealing from houses, raping young women and killing those who dared to stay there. And now we have to deal with the consequences of russia’s actions. I have absolutely no remorse for the russian army and those who are still stupid enough to support it. Thousands of lives have been lost. Millions of Ukrainians are traumatised for life. russia’s army can’t be forgiven nor justified. I used to believe in peace and forgiveness before this, believe it or not. Now I just want all of them dead. War criminals deserve no remorse.
Other than that, the weather here in Chernivtsi is unusually cold and stormy. I was almost ready for Spring, but it suddenly snowed today. A nice beginning to April, I suppose. I put on my beanie (picture also attached) and went outside to get my brother’s birthday gift from the post office. For now I’m trying to spend the last day before my university classes start (which I’m very anxious for). But with all the news, I’m having a hard time trying to relax.
I don’t want to say that I’m completely giving up, but I’m slowly losing hope. It’s getting hard to hold on when my country is still actively being destroyed and some people still choose to believe that russia is in the right. I probably won’t see my friends in months. Nothing will be the same anymore. russia won’t be held accountable because everyone is more bothered with the #notalrussians bullshit. And Ukrainians are constantly targeted and harassed. I just realised that there isn’t a single generation of Ukrainians for over three centuries that hasn’t suffered from oppression coming from russia. Why is everything like this? When will this end for good?